Father's Day.

Well I'm handling today better then I thought I would. I'm actually having a pretty good day considering I'm at work.

I never did make father's day the best for my dad when he was still here. He was a great dad he deserved better then I ever gave him. I like to think he knew that though.

I hope though that I can help make the father I have in my life right now fathers day better.

I don't know want to say to much regarding fathers day because I am at and I don't really feel like getting all teary eyed and crap.

I will say how ever, if you who ever you are reading this is lucky enough to still have your father do NOT skip a change to tell him how much you love him. I missed that chance, the last time i spoke to my father i got mad at him in a very selfish manner and never told him i loved him. That's something I get to live with for the rest of my life.

You know what really bugs me, is i used to be able to hear his (my dads) voice if i closed my eyes and thought about it i could still feel him like holding my hand and i can't anymore.

It terrifies me to think I'm forgetting him.

Any way I could talk about my dad all day but like I said i don't want to get to emotional.

Happy fathers day Dad I wish you were here more on days like this then any other.

The Return

Well it's been a few day's, a few day's longer then i said it would be until I wrote another entry.

Not much has been up. Been thinking a lot about getting back in shape, It's needed with out a doubt but it's doing it that's going to be the issue. I've let myself get so out of shape it's not even funny. I have about 150lbs to lose before I'd be classified a healthy weight again.

Ugggg I do not want to be at work right now but it is dead so far so i at least have time to work on this.  So what should toady's blog be about.

I know I've been having some weird dreams lately none that i can vividly remember but just ones that when you wake up you know it was weird. Ever have those ones?

I'm in a random mind frame today.

So Shelby is trying to plan my 1st camping trip this summer. Should be interesting, not much about camping sounds overly appealing to me to be honest lol. I hate bugs, nothing about sleeping on an air mattress on the ground sounds appealing. I'm going to go though, it is an experience i want to have. Hell I might even like it. I'm hoping the trip to PEI works out though, it might not be "camping" where we would be in cabins but it would be more fun i think.

So clipping my nails this morning and totally almost ended up cutting off have of my left hand ring fingers nail, got to love it when you do that shit eh.

Spent alot of time thinking about my friend David down in the states for some reason on the way to work this morning. It's funny how someone you've never actually met before could mean so much to you. Like seriously the guy has got to be one of the most important people to me and I've never met the ass hole. I call him an ass hole out of love by the way hahaha.

mmmmm coffee the one thing that keeps me from being a serial killer lol aaaah.

See random.

I'm tired this morning, I always am though 1st day back to work after my weekend. I hope today goes by quick, it never usually does though. That's not being negative either i just can't remember the last time I had a day go by fast.

So had a good conversation about upcoming super hero movies this morning. For example, they are spouse to be making (rumour has it anyway) a JLA (justice league of America) movie sometime late 2015. I have no idea how they would pull off a movie like that. I mean it would cost upwards of 600-700 million to make a movie like that. I mean think of the CG that would be needed. You have Superman, Wonder Woman, The Flash, Green Lantern and depending on what way they go either John Jones/Martian Manhunter or Auqaman. All of which would need CG to look good the only one that wouldn't would be stupid ass Batman. Either way should be interesting if they decide to make it.

Well I think that's enough for now, I may make another post later today who knows.

Well ive been slacking on this lately. I want to find some better topics I think im not going to make this a daily thing, unless Ofcorse something strikes me. I will through the week how ever make a list of good topics and make a blog entry a couple times a week with themes.

I dont want to set the goal to do this daily and get bored and not want to do it anymore.

So with that ill say goodnight and start fresh on.....hummmm sunday. That should give me enougj time to make a good one.

So I skipped one.

I completely didn't mean to skip last nights blog, just slipped my mind. Ah well ahead and on ward and all that jazz.

I haven't done what I'm doing right now in a long time. I'm just sitting here listening to music, no t.v. nothing else on just music. I listen to music everyday but I forget sometimes how influential music really is. I downloaded a bunch of older stuff today for example "lean on me"  by Al Green and random stuff by the temptations. 

I even went as far as getting some backstreet boys and 98 degrees. I remember when no one judged you for listening to music. Granted I was a kid, who judges a kid on listening to teenie bopper music. Which is I was when that music was coming out (BSB not AL green lol) and i really don't care what anyone says no one came out with as many good love songs as the backstreet boys unless you want to go back 15-20 years then you'll find some. 

I love music, the beautiful thing about music is there is a song for you no matter what mood you are in. There are songs you attach to memories that you could go 10 years with out hearing that song but when you do you associate that memory almost instantly.

I hate it though when you have that song that you associated to a good memory then that good thing was taken from you or left or it wasn't meant to be or what ever the case maybe and then that song is then taken from you because you don't want to think about that memory. We all have at least one of those songs.

We all have that favorite song too, mine (as well as a lot of you as well) would be a toss up between a bunch of songs. Easily some of my favorites are Nothing Else Matters by Metallica and then flip that coin and  you get Just to See You Smile by Tim McGraw. Two very different songs but I could listen to them for hours. Just some of them songs you can close your eyes lean your head back and let the world slip away.

Its an amazing thing, music. For the reason that I've been listening to music (of my choosing) for about 20 years and every day new music comes out. That is AMAZING to me the creativity of artists around the world. More genres then I will ever be able to name which is something else that's amazing to me.

Like I will hear a song and think to my self god how can anyone like that song and some one will, someone will love that song. It's simply incredible that music can literally change who you are or can bring back to a day years prior or make you dream of the future.

There are songs I can remember exactly where i was and what i was doing when i heard it. How mind blowing is that.

Well I think you get what I'm driving at. Music is powerful, it doesn't judge you. What else on this planet can you say that is that pure.

Well I'll call it a day for today. I think i made up for not posting yesterday.

Well another day come and gone, helped shelby with the basement clean up and helped mow the lawn.

Now after a hot day and a AMAZING frosty from Wendy's its time for bed because I have stupid work in the morning and im far to tired tonright a half way decent blog tonight lol.

I'll make up for it tomorrow with another themed blog or something.

Well good night true believers.