Father's Day.

Well I'm handling today better then I thought I would. I'm actually having a pretty good day considering I'm at work.

I never did make father's day the best for my dad when he was still here. He was a great dad he deserved better then I ever gave him. I like to think he knew that though.

I hope though that I can help make the father I have in my life right now fathers day better.

I don't know want to say to much regarding fathers day because I am at and I don't really feel like getting all teary eyed and crap.

I will say how ever, if you who ever you are reading this is lucky enough to still have your father do NOT skip a change to tell him how much you love him. I missed that chance, the last time i spoke to my father i got mad at him in a very selfish manner and never told him i loved him. That's something I get to live with for the rest of my life.

You know what really bugs me, is i used to be able to hear his (my dads) voice if i closed my eyes and thought about it i could still feel him like holding my hand and i can't anymore.

It terrifies me to think I'm forgetting him.

Any way I could talk about my dad all day but like I said i don't want to get to emotional.

Happy fathers day Dad I wish you were here more on days like this then any other.